14 posts from November 2008

black friday death ... Susan is right in telling me "one more reason to hate walmart".. what. the. hell. is. wrong. with. americans?! Seriously, sales at wal-mart you know, are WAY more important then a human being's life.

THIS is why I didn't go shopping today. THIS is why I don't shop at Wal-Mart [I mean, look at the obvious majority of people- and their stature in society- pretty clear they are deadbeat's that will have bad karma for the rest of their lives.] and lastly, THIS is why I am a homebody.

So tragic, I feel for the family.

xoxo
brooklyn. <3

My thankful list for the last year..

Ben.. he has been there for me unconditionally, and was there when no one
else was. When I felt trapped and hopeless, he was still there and kept me
going. When he should have completely run the other way, and I was battling
what I needed, versus what I wanted.. he was still there, and fought for me.
He has helped me become a better person, a better friend, a better mother
and better lover. I have so much love and respect for him.. and I can
honestly say, after being with him for the last year and some odd months I
still look at him and feel completely in love, as I did when we first met..
only, now it's comfortable, loving.. exactly what it should be.

The kids.. We've had to struggle for the last few years. But things are
finally settled down so much, we are normal [normalish.]..

    ...Xander is finally getting help for everything he needs help
with, and is learning to overcome the unfairness we all experience in
society and daily life. He's such a strong kid for everything he has seen
and gone through, he's funny and talkative and completely loving and
emotional. His smile is infectious and although unorganized, he always knows
where his favorite things are.

    ...KK has been able to flourish as an individual, and has turned
into such a little firecracker, with such a silly personality. She is in
very many ways, such a female.. but loves to still hang out and get dirty.
She's 4, going on 14 most of the time... sweet, giving, sassy & a great
sense of humor. And, where ever it came from.. she stands up for herself,
and let's what she's feeling be known.

Friends.. the few left, the few who are still there. The one's who said
they understood why I gave up going out. The one's who understood dependancy
problems, and helped me through them. The one's who still called. The one's
who were okay with taking afternoons to hang out with coffee, over nights at
the bar. The one's who have watched my kids when I needed peace and quiet,
and sanity. The one's who listened to me cry, and laugh. Or drove me around
at 2am when I was upset... or drove me home when I had too many drinks. I
love the few of you.. and would do anything for you too.. anytime, anywhere.

My Family.. I don't know how they put up with me. But I love my family so
much, for helping me grow up.. for helping me with the kids, for helping me
financially when I needed it.. and embracing me, and letting me know I'd be
okay as a single mom. That I'd be okay with changes and choices I was
making.

Opportunities.. I have gotten to see and do things this last year with Ben
I highly value. Things, though not exotic, or far away.. things I cherish,
that other's may not. Laying in a comfortable, warm bed being held. Walking
on beaches. Swanky dinners & martini's. Cooking excursions. Unexpected bouts
in the Northwest and surpises when I'm down. A new job.. and divorce.
Knowing.. I will be okay, and things always turn out better.. even when
thigns seem low and saddening, they always get better..

New Beginnings.. that says it all. And I hope my new beginnings phase
continues into the next few months with a few things ;)

And Lastly.. being happy, finally. Being loved, finally.

xoxo
brooklyn. <3

The weekend was really good. Ben and I did SO much stuff, it's unbelievable!

Friday he wasn't feeling well and just wanted to sleep.. so i went out to dinner with Landi, and then came home and went to bed next to him.

Woke up Saturday to hugs and cuddles.. always nice. We got ready really quick and went to The Spar for breakfast.. decided to go to the Museum of Glass.. which was fun, so so beautiful,- there just isn't a whole lot to look at though, which was sort of frustrating, we were in and out of there in less then 40 minutes. Oh well.

After that we hit up the Metropolitan Market in the Proctor district [I love it up there!].. got a tasty Ham & Brie sandwich, and we each got a cupcake from Cupcake Royale [yum].

Decided after that we should go to the movies.. but the movie didn't start until 4:15pm.. so we went and got Starbucks in DuPont, and then wandered around Steilacoom's beachy area. Still wasn't time for the movie.. went and looked at furniture, found out that in the clearance warehouse of the furniture store in Lacey.. they have a giant stain glassed church door "for all to enjoy" from 1907.. Isn't that bizarre? Finally went to the movie.. saw "Role Models".. it was hilarious.

Afterward, went to dinner at Angel's.. had some tasty curry.. yum! Then we decided to grab a couple drinks at Swing. Then.. went to The Mark for a few more.. there was live music in the red room, which was pretty killer.. except for all the Greeners and BO mixed with Patchouli smell..ick. And why hippy girls feel the need to dance in EVERYONE'S way as if NO ONE ELSE is next to them while "feeling the music" is beyond me. All in all... great day though.

Sunday we ate at The Creperie downtown [tasty], hit up the Famer's Market, drove around and went to the bookstore. I love relaxing weekends with my boy.. !

I got everything to make all my Thanksgiving side dishes, and am pretty excited for it! Should be fun! Funny how much work goes into one single dinner though, isn't it?

xoxo
brooklyn. <3

                                                                                                                                                                         

Got some cleaning done. Chilled with my home girl [okay, Ceilidh..she still counts though!] and she keeps asking me to take video of her. She learned "Head, Shoulders, Knees & Toes" recently, and now appreciates singing it to anyone who may listen to her. She's been very relaxed all day.. Ben is taking tomorrow off to stay with her.. which is very nice of him.
My dishwasher.. yeah, that BRAND NEW one, that was just installed in May [you know.. SIX MONTHS AGO!] is already on the fritz. Ya know, if the apartment wasn't so cheap, and would actually realize "hey, these are apartments with families, and kids.. and LOTS of dishes/wear & tear" they wouldn't have to be sending me new stuff and coming to continually FIX stuff that is wrong.. Arg.

I'm really excited it's almost Thanksgiving! There's already family drama no doubt.. poor mom & grandma. Oi. We're making the stuffing [Ben's task].. a sweet potato side dish [my task.. unsure WHAT I'll make].. Brie en Croute [my task].. Ambrosia Salad [it's a staple at Holiday's now.. Cindy always made it, and taught me -it's fairly simple & super tasty]

I have to take Xander to school in a few minutes, but will update really quick.. I woke up yesterday and felt sicker then could be.. flu, ick. I called my mom and she came and got the kids.. and dropped everything to help me. She fed the kids, took Xander to school.. hung out with KK all day, and took her to her doctor's appointment.

The doctors appointment. Well, KK stubbed her toe the weekend before last.. we'd been soaking it, and putting Neosporin on it.. but I guess it wasn't enough. They think she has MRSA in her toe, and at the very least need to remove the nail next week. It all really grosses me out, and makes me feel so bad for her, I know she's in ALOT of pain too. MRSA is pretty contagious if you come in contact with it apparently.. I'm not THAT familiar with it.. but will be bleaching [which makes me cringe, I HATE bleach and non eco cleaning products, the thought of keeping that stuff in my house makes me so sad].. the tub, her "foot bowls", etc etc.. will also need to wash her shoes in HOT HOT water, and socks. Oi. Just what I want to do when I also feel sick. So, she has to have her foot soaked 3-4x a day, and have special ointment placed 3x a day. We find out for sure by Monday if it's MRSA..

I had my procedure appointment set for Monday, but with having to take yesterday and today off.. and then having next Thursday & Friday off for Thanksgiving.. i'm going to reschedule so I CAN work next Monday-Wednesday. I need the money, far too much to miss that much work.

Well, Xander needs to get to school.. and KK wants Starbucks [I promised we'd get soy hot chocolate as soon as he got dropped off, and she's been begging to leave for the last thirty or so minutes]

xoxo
Brooklyn. <3

Today Kim & I traded kids for the day. Ben & I had KK and Reilly. Kim had Xander.. they went and did fun stuff, including bowling.. Xander really adores one on one time, and being able to see her. And we always enjoy Reilly's silly little self. We had no idea what to do, so we pretty much just said we'd wing it. Hung out at home a bit, then hit The Farmer's Market.

The kid's loved it. We got some sweet treats [and Ben & I got cheesey jalapeno bread].. and they girls both wanted a tasty fresh apple.. funny how picky they already are.. the one vendors gives a free apple to every child if it's a 99 cent or less per pound variety.. the girls chose th $2.49/lb variety. Go figure. So we sat and ate, and listened to the band playing. The girl's really dug the band, it was so cute, they wer dancing in their seats. I'll post a video at the end of them watching the band.

I'm just feeling really depressed today.. it started out okay today, and then slowly... maybe because of outside influences I just slipped into feeling kinda down. Plus, last night Ben didn't feel good and was just really distant and cranky.. maybe I just feel lonely today.

I got our gift certificate to Swing today for the mishap from like almost 2 months or so ago. Nice of her to send us a gift certificate :D I'm pretty excited to be able to use it! Also got my child support today.. that extra $350 every other week helps more then you'd expect.. It all makes me realize how much I need to go back to college so I can get a good, decent job making more then semi-moderate pay.

Also, I need a new car.. I don't even want to think about it right now. I can't afford once until around February, it's frustrating.. to say the least.

The neighbors were being so excessively loud when I got home today, I saw the ceiling moved and then watched as my curtain rod & curtains came flying to the ground.. I don't feel like dealing with putting them back up right now.. I'm too cranky and annoyed.

I think I'll go to Target, the bank and get myself some Starbucks so that I'll feel better.

xoxo
brooklyn. <3

I was driving through downtown Olympia on my way to get the kids and drove past The Reef.. and omg, wtf.. whhere'd it goooo??!  Got home, searched and: The Reef Fire . Sad, sad, sad. I loved The Reef! Maybe it won't be so dirty now, LOL.

I had Xander's intake appointment today.. it was hard to talk about everything, and I held back tears through alot of it. I don't like having to re hash the past like that. Maybe this will all help for everybody's future though. I worry about Xander so much.. ::sigh::

Christmas is soon approaching, Xander just learned of Nerf 'N Strike Wii game, and he was mesmerized. Brett talked about wanting to get it for him, but either way.. I'll make sure one of us buys it for him. KK wants anything, and everything girly. No clue what to get for her.. She's really into Bitty Baby stuff, she brings her bitty with her EVERYPLACE.. and has for the last year + [she got it for her 3rd birthday- October 5th, 2007]

Oh, and I may have a new job. Which is exciting..

xoxo
Brooklyn. <3